[Plain Old Jane]

well, actually I decided around 6 am, after poring over every speck on information I come up with on self defense, and the consensus is... avoid a fight altogether. so thats what I'll do. I mean, yea, I felt betrayed in the worst possible way another human being can hurt another, and I still do, and its gonna sting for a long time... but pretty much anyone could cream me in a fight, and there is a chance his thug ass would get pent up over my ambiguous qualities and might not stop when I go limp. I might end up like Gwen Arujuo, who was beaten to death with a shovel over the course of 9 hours. And that would not benefit my agenda in this world.

I am however sated by the fact that, unless she found another non-thug person as supportive as I am, she has absolutely no chance of rising up out of the shit hole she calls a life. Same goes for chuck too, people like that only end up in prison, or the aim of an ambulance call. And that makes me feel better. As much love and faith I want to place in her, I just dont have it in me... Last night I didnt sleep because I felt so threatened, and if it comes up again, I'll be going through the legal channels, however even that is not in my best interests, so...

it is my aim to avoid confrontation as much as possible until that becomes impossible, and if push comes to shove, he'll find a knife planted just to the left of the all important 1 percent.